What I was thinking when I abandoned Gatsby?

Gatsby and I had been involved for some time before I was able to build up the nerve to tell Tom I was leaving him for Gatsby. It was time and unfortunately for not only me and Gatsby it did not go smoothly. Chaos occurred and Tom was enraged because he feared his mistress was leaving him to go out West with her husband and I was leaving him for Gatsby who he despised from the day one. Gatsby presented me with an ultimatum that I simply could not handle. He wanted me to admit to never loving Tom but that was untrue. After I hit Myrtle with Gatsby's car, I went to Tom for help. We talked and sorted everything out. Tom was willing to protect me at all cost and I was beginning to remember why I loved him. He was consistent and reliable and I knew his money was well earned. We were able to put everything behind us and focus on our well-being as a family. Gatsby was simply just a thing in the past that I was willing to forget and move on. I chose Tom over Gatsby because he was the better option for my well-being. Although Tom and I had our troubles within our marriage, it didn't matter anymore because that was in the past just like my relationship with Gatsby. Tom assured me everything would be okay and he would take care of the situation. Gatsby was just a name of the past that was to be forgotten.